Yesterday late afternoon I had my audio interview with Jim Perry (of Euphomet & Nite Drift podcast fame) in our witches' attic. It was all ready and I was feeling excited and nervous, but Jim and John (the sound guy) got everything set up and everyone was just so easy-going and efficient that things were ready in a jiffy!

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We talked about some deep issues and several times I crossed the line from what I would have admitted to in the past. I talked about MILABS and "The Y Juncture" and "The Plan" and about an abduction where I woke up with a strange orange gel coming out of my vagina! So... yeah, deeply revealing, but I'm sick of all the secrets like these things are shameful. I got roped into this! It wasn't my choice no matter what those asshole New Age jerks insist. If I'm here for "a reason" it's to act as an advocate for other abductees as well as myself.Perhaps it was daring to go there like I did, but you know... it actually felt good. Like I robbed my own bank or something? Hard to explain. I keep thinking about all the abductees who feel forced to keep all this shit a secret and I'm just DONE with secrets. Everyone feels so... scared and they can't talk about it or process it and speaking up means they won't feel so alone. "So-- FUCK IT!" I said at the end of the interview.Jim was pleased, and he said he'd definitely be back for another interview with me at some point in the future. I'm sure Mike and I make for quite the contrast in styles. Mike is thoughtful and pondering, whereas I'm passionate and pointed. Mike is diplomatic, but I'm unabashedly controversial. I'm sure it was quite the day for Jim's team! (Mike was filmed in the park near Heron Hold.)

And then we began.It was probably a good day for Jim to ask me questions about my abduction experiences, because I've been in a frustrated and held back sort of mood for weeks at this point. I'm tired of waiting. I'm tired of feeling bound. I want to break out and let go instead.So I did!